There are still a few posts from my hospital stay to put on here, but I thought it was about time for another more recent update.
Behavioral activation is something we talked about in the CBT group in the hospital. The most basic way I can think of to describe it is “fake it until you make it.”
Depression tries to convince me that activities I enjoy will not be enjoyable. Behavioral activation says try it no matter how you feel. Try it for at least 5 minutes then you can quit or stay for another 5 minutes. This is much easier said than done when you are depressed or anxious. I have talked myself out of trying several activities in the few weeks I have been home.
There have been some positives though and that is what I need to focus on. Last Friday I went to work for the first time since January. After I went I was glad I did. It gave me a sense of accomplishment and it was nice being around other people. Friday evening I attended a social vroup I go to every now and then. Working all day kept my mind busy enough that I did not have time to talk myself out of going to the group. A wind storm and rain would have provided a convenient rationalization for skipping the group but I went anyway and had a great time and a couple of timbits 😊.
In the hospital there were doctors and nurses to hold me accountable for attending my planned activities. Now I do not have that accountability on a daily basis and it is more difficult. I am going to try to remember how it helps my mood to follow through with my plans. I will also try to be more compassionate to myself when I just can not muster the energy to go out.