As my transition starts to pick up speed and the day gets closer and closer for me to walk out in public as the person I feel like, the details are getting overwhelming. I stole this from someone else, but it is no less true for me, people tell me I am courageous but really I am just doing what I have to to survive. I couldn’t go on much longer the way I was. I am extremely fortunate that I have such great people around me though. It seems like no matter how overwhelmed or scared I am feeling, there is someone there to lend a bit of encouragement. I see a counselor every couple of weeks, and she amazes me with her calm compassion. Nothing rattles her and she has been so supportive. I know this is her job, but it appears to me that she chose a profession that matches her person. I also go for electrolysis every week. This is as much therapy as hair removal, too. It is basically a one or two hour visit with a friend every week, except we never have coffee and chocolates, which is a big hint by the way if you are reading this! Again, just a wonderful, kind and gentle person. She has her struggles, but is so concerned about others. I have also reconnected with a couple I only briefly knew in a city I moved away from. I did know them for a very brief time, but there was an almost instant connection. I could tell right away that they are extraordinarily nice and genuine people. Now I get the kindest notes from them and feel so supported in my decision. They seem to always just sense the right time to send a smile or encouraging word.
Right now there is so much focus on me in my life. It is necessary but I am not used to focusing on myself so much. I feel very blessed to have the people I have in my life. The few I mentioned aren’t the only ones. I want them to know that they are a tremendous support to me right now and I honestly think they are all incredible and very beautiful people. You are all role models for the type of person I want to be. Thank you so much for who you are!!!!